Life is a Blank Canvas

This is the fourth time tonight that I've sat down to write something on here. There are so many things going through my head (nothing major, though) that it just seems easier to keep them there.

1. I've been working pretty steadily on the book. It's coming along great! So far, I have about 25% of it finished...which is good, but not great. It's okay; I plan to focus on it over spring break. Other things like a formal paper for senior seminar, a stock portfolio for business, photo projects, and creating presentation boards, billboards, paper advertisments, and website layouts for various projects in concepts are keeping me busy, too.
2. The way that you stare, starts a fire in me. Come up to my room, you sexy little thing. Let's play a game, I won't be a tease....I've been getting weird vibes lately.
3. I've been thinking about my spiritual life quite a lot. I don't really feel as though I'm lacking anything...I wish I had more time to spend figuring out exactly what I believe. I mean, I know the basics, but there are sooo many layers to figure out. From what little I know about it, I think I may have slight Existentialist leanings? Buddhism really speaks to me too, but at the same time, I don't know if I'm quite ready to cut all ties to Christianity. I don't really know what's holding me back...I mean, Jesus was a very inspirational man, but no more so than the Buddha or Muhammad (at least to me).
4. I'm getting tired of calling guys "fucking assholes," "douchebags," and the other various names that we use. Sure, there are some [I can specifically think of one right now that should truly be scared] that genuinely deserve those titles...but I think of the great guys in my life and I feel bad for generalizing them in with the few bad ones. I don't want all of the guys to think that I'm a complete bitch just because they've had a bad experience or two with one girl.
5. I'm excited for this weekend! Dancing on Thursday, concert on Friday and other various activities...woot! I love my girls so, so much, and I don't think I tell them this nearly enough.
6. Hmm...let's see, what else was there....? OH! The weather! What the hell?! Seriously, it was a lovely 65-70 degrees (albeit cloudy and starting to rain) when I went to the lab yesterday afternoon, and when I left three hours later, it was 43 degrees. I am so NOT okay with this. And there's a 30% chance for snow tomorrow. Seriously, MO.
7. I just want to say that I love my mom so very much. She's a spectacular woman, and I hope that I can be like her when I grow up. We have our disagreements and such, but she's always been so supportive of me--in all of my decision-making--and I know that not everyone has this. We have such an open relationship, and I'm thankful that I don't have to hide things from her, and I'm glad that when we talk on the phone, it's just like talking to one of my best friends.
8. I want to play the stock market. I don't have the time, especially with the fluctuations that are going on in the economy in present times. Sometime soon, when (if?) things settle down, I will give it a serious go.
9. I feel like I should have an even 10....
10. Have a good rest of your week!

Sunrise, Sunset, Swiftly Flow the Days

There's too many things that I haven't done yet

Too many sunsets

I haven't seen

You can't waste the day wishing it'd slow down

You would've thought by now

I'd have learned something
I made up my mind when I was a young girl

I've been given this one world

I won't worry it away

Many the Miles: Sara Bareilles

I'm a Believer

I believe that

• creative freedom is a necessity for everyone
• music speaks to the heart
• Apple makes the best computers
• dreaming big is a necessity
• supporting local businesses over large corporations is good
• recycling will help make the world a better place
• helping the less fortunate is one of the most rewarding experiences one can have
• hot tea soothes the soul
• one person can change the world
• there is something bigger out there than all of us...some may call this "God"...I'm not sure
• sunshine and warmth drastically improve everyone's mood
• one has to find happiness within herself before she can be truly happy with any boy
• quiet nights in can be just as satisfying as loud nights out
• dancing is one of the best ways to relieve stress
• my family is made up of the most accepting, loving, and fun people ever
• my friends are going to do great things
• bright colors instantly boost my mood
• love and happiness will find their way to everyone in one form or another
• deep conversations at night are the best
• walking on a beautiful day/evening is glorious

Let's Go Frolic!

Ahhh! I can feel spring! Since my window was opened from last night, I woke up to sunshine, birds singing, and a fresh breeze. It's a beautiful thing!

I'm so glad it's Friday! This morning, I have a scavenger hunt for my business class. Then, I work for a couple of hours and have lunch with my girls. Then, it will be time for our Friday afternoon outing (it's always a highlight of the week for me)! After that, who knows what will happen!

Love you all!

Dream, Dream Away

Isn't it a little weird or disconcerting when you have a dream about someone who you haven't seen for a long time, and then you run into him the very next day?

Ha.

All Your Cities Lie in Dust

Usually, I don't really spend much time worring about the economy. I mean, yeah, it's in terrible shape, but there's not much that I personally can do about it except to spend responsibility. My stocks are not worth nearly as much as they were this time last year, but I'm not going to panic and cash them in either. I realize it's going to be harder to find an internship, job and to pay for things, but really that's the extent to what I think about. I rarely think about what exactly got us into this mess...besides the usual, "Bush is a dumbass."

Today in Business, we discussed AIG who has lost the $150 BILLION that was given to them to help them out of this slump; they're probably going to lose the next $50 BILLION we give them, too Then we focused on GM. Oh. My. Gosh. What idiots. Seriously. They lost a measly $31 BILLION compared to AIG, but let's put that in perspective. Losing $31 B is the same thing as burning a $1000.00 bill every minute for an entire year. It's ridiculous.

And here is the reasoning behind the downfall is that GM cannot compete with foreign made vehicles. Duh. Before GM even starts building a car, it has already put $25oo.00 into it because of some very faulty programs that they insist on holding onto.

Firstly, they pay almost all of their employees' (including families of the employees and retirees) insurance. The employee does not have to pay any premium. When there are over 130,000 people getting this, it amounts to about $1000.00 from each car.

Secondly, if a plant closes, the employees who worked at that plant continue to receive full pay and benefits as long as they are volunteering or going to school (which GM will pay for). That doesn't provide ANY incentive for the person to go find a job.

Both of these practices are great--in theory. I love that GM has so much respect for their employees and that they are truly concerned with bettering society. However, these actions have caused them to lose so much money that instead of bolstering middle-class America, it's going to bring it toppling down.

It's just so frustrating.

PS. The Dow dropped 300 points today and is below 7000 for the first time in 12 years.

Could Someone Plug Me Back In?

I feel disconnected, like something is missing. I don't know what it is or why I feel it, but something is definitely off. It's not just the loneliness that I've been feeling the past few weeks, and it's not stress...it's...weird.

I've also been mulling over something that was said to me a few days ago. I think I'm letting it bother me more than it should...